Random

Elephant

Love

SIlverware

Umbrella

Apple 

Attitude

Xylophone

Review.

I planted the seed two days ago tomorrow. Still no signs of life, I give up and don't even care about it anymore. It was a fake flower anyway. 

Not the case.

If every time something bad happens people say "How could there possibly be a God?" then does it not only make logical sense that every time something good happens people say "Oh my, there must be a God!" 

I think so, but for some reason this is not the case. 

We'll see.

This is going to be my absolute last attempt at trying to make this seed grow. If germination is not successful and I see no signs of sprouting, I think I will just have to give up for good. 

Where?

NYC NYC NYC NYC NYC NYC OTTAWA NYC OTTAWA NYC NYC NYC OTTAWA NYC NYC NYC

Nickname.

I just realized how many nickname have been created by me and my friends for ourselves and people who don't even know we talk about them. 

Stretch.

The Destroyer.

Baby Face.

Higher Standards.

The Hollisters.

Parties Friend.

Denim Vest.

Pink Lady.

Apple Bottom.

Diva Cup.

Baby Tranny.

Sad Tranny.

Loud Tranny.

Over-the-top Tranny

Handyman Tranny.

Diva Tranny.

High Blood-pressure Tranny.

Paranoid Tranny.

2 for 1 Tranny.

Mood Swing Tranny.

Still-in-high-school Tranny. 

Daly Tranny

Fiasco Tranny.

Two-tone Tranny. 

19.20.5.22.5

I really don't even know what to think. 

I just wish that 19.20.5.22.5 and 20.8.15.13.1.19 were closer numbers. 

Robinson.

Yesterday I begun my Haute Couture Sewing II class at the fashion school here in the city! I am super excited about, not only to learn more professional techniques, but to meet new friends with an obvious interest in fashion. On our first day, we began making a nice Jackie O style dress. Learning how to alter patterns to fit our customer. Being the only male, my model is a stuffed dress for on a pole. She is pretty cooperative though, does not talk (she has no head) and does not move around or mind if I prick her with a pin. She also has the "ideal" body measurements. I look forward to all that I will learn in the months to come. 

You.

You just get worse and worse. 

Bad Service.

Thanks to unreliable postal service, a secret may not have gotten out. Phew. 

Just do it.

Our world will see perfection and peace once everyone learns just to love everyone else in it. And everyone else learns not to take advantage of those people they will know will love them no matter what. 

This week.

1. Extreme fatigue

2. A bunch of wasted money

3. A class I can no longer take

4. Confirmation on disappointing news I already expected

5. Recurrence of something I had hoped went away

6. Still no buses

7. Solitude

8. Still no plans for the future. 

Pas Égal

Can someone please tell me when have a passion for fashion was the equivalent to having a sexual attraction to people of the same sex as oneself because I don't see the connection and so this confuses me. 

The Worst of the Worst.

Minus 35 wind chill factors

Hot dogs

Adolph Hitler

Fake and phony wannabe's 

Sleeveless turtle neck sweaters

Insincere apologies

Very early mornings

9/11

Superficial friendships

Mayonnaise

Perspiration

Bigots 

Followers

Sweatpants

Aging.

I think as I get older, (this is strange to say, considering I am 19, I don't mean to sound so pretentious), anyway, I think as I get older, I am realizing more and more what a waste of a life it would be to live with no purpose, no direction, no goals, no dreams. If I die without making this a planet a better place to be on, than I will be disappointed in myself. As much as I enjoy a good party, crazy nights and youthful recklessness, I know that there are so many more important things in life than that short-term self-entertainment. Finding ways to improve my health and longevity have become important, healthy eating and living styles now will effect my quality of life later on. I don't want to be one of those grandfathers who is immobile before their grandchildren graduate. Sustainability is huge in my life now, we only have one planet and it was given to us with the assumption we would take care of it, trying to do all I can to protect our amazingly complex and beautiful Earth is so essential. Helping others, is something that I want to become more important than just helping myself, I am not suggesting I will never go to a night club or host another party in my life, but  I know this is not what my purpose is, no matter how fun it seems now, I know in the end, it will be what I have done for others that will give me lasting gratification.